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well lately i have been bored out of my fucking mind. but ya school has got even gayer. i cant wait till summer again.

 well me and bryan have totally stoped talkin. ya i know that sounds wierd cause we go out but like ya. thats just how it is i dont want it to be this way. but i guess he is losing interest in me. and he wont break up with me i dont know why but i guess if he doesnt talk to me or tell me what is going on with him the only choice i have is to ....you know. wich i really! really!dont want to do. cause i want to be with him but i cant have a boyfriend i dont even talk to. well ya all my friends seem to keep disappearing...i dont kow what i do to make them go away i guess i am just a plan old bitch. like everyone supposly says. i mean me and cj mckenna used to be like the bestest of friends and then i find out he talks shit behind my back and that he like hates me.but ya ok. guess i  deserve it. life sucks...and so does love. i see no use for either one. like if you fall in love it all like dissapears and  life it dissapears. Every single time you think everything is great and getting better it turns around and slaps you in the face!!!

well i have to go cause i have to go to my doctors...boy do i have some problems...i have esteye, swollen gland..a spider bite, and ausor..you kow like all on my head so if i dont go to the doctors my head is going to fall off..lol.

well ya write again when i feel like it...

Ashley~//<3333

wowa i havent written in here for like ever....everything has just gotten worst. sometimes i just want to get out and go away to a far fra away place and live there . but i cant!. i am so confuzed and everyting that is going on just puzzles me. have you ever felt so alone like no body liked you like at everyone you looked at they were saying someting about you well that is how everything seems to me. i have got ppl hating me that dont even know me. But ya me and renee got in a fighgt cause she really pissed me off and ya well we became friends again in dance. so we are cool ond good thing that has happened to me. i am so confuzed right now about bryan too but i dont know maybe it is justb that stage it has been 2 months and all but i just dont know. well i am going to my moms tonight so that should be fun. i will get to see my older brother and his girlfriend who ids pregnant with my little knephew...hehe. his name is going o be jordon taylor connelly. well i have to go know so i will write when i can.

see ya,

Ash

  i am going to marry this guy one day<333

tear* tear*

well lately I have been so bored and well ya school same old same old but it is just getting worse....i am still thinkin about going home schooled and ya....but i feel like i cant cause of my close friends. but ya my mom finally camere home she ran away from the guy who hit her. An she is back and i cant believe i am so happy to see her. i thought i would hate her for the rest of my life.

well me and bryans 2 months is one wendsday..so ya! ya! for us. i love him soooo much. but ya i am really bored and there si nothiong really to talk abiotu so i am going to go i will write some other time...

~Ash-//<333

well on friday i went tot he football game and well that was funn...but i was more anxious to got to homecming on saturday....but that didnt turn out the way i wanted it to...first i got all stressed out at the begging cause my hair and dress wasnt turning out right. btu i got over it and when i was there this whol;e big thing happened with me and emily. and that kind of ruined my night but itr was all cool at friendlys i had soo much fun. even tho the friendlys ppl are were being really mean. so ya then sunday i came home early from renees house. and i hung out iwth page and well we were hiding from my dad cause i was supposed to be at  her house but ya know that just didnt happen. so anyways we were walkin behind house and then we stareted to run. paig was infront of my\e a little bit ..and all of a sudden i hear her say woooh and i was like what...and she was on the ground and i triopped over this little fence.

It was so fucking hilarious.       "WATCH OUT FOR THE FENCE"

so ya then i came home and well it got boring again cause i had to go to school and schyool is always boring. well i hung out iwth jessi today and that was fun...i got gum in my hair and she used penut butter/windex(do not ask..it was her crazy idea.)/sope. but hey it worked so o well. so ya i am going to go and take a shower to get it out...but before i go here are somepics from homecomin of me,emily,renee,my sis and her friend stephany.

renee,emily&&me

...emily

...me

me and my dad^

I love my nae...

me and my emiie

well thats all...post some other time.

~Ash-//<3333

I you love bryan<33333